Changes, and Samesies
It is finally here--2018. For most of you--your GRADUATION YEAR!!
You have waited three very long years to get to this moment.
But, before we move forward, let's look back a little bit.
Allllllll the way back to when you were just a baby freshie.
How were you different then?
Includes differences in physical appearance, intelligence, emotions, opinions and ideas.
What was the most important thing you learned about yourself during the course of your freshmen, sophomore and junior years?
You have waited three very long years to get to this moment.
But, before we move forward, let's look back a little bit.
Allllllll the way back to when you were just a baby freshie.
How were you different then?
Includes differences in physical appearance, intelligence, emotions, opinions and ideas.
What was the most important thing you learned about yourself during the course of your freshmen, sophomore and junior years?
Since freshman year I feel as though I had changed a lot, appearance, intelligence, and opinions on things. Back then I was much fatter than I am now and I feel as though I had a baby face and had certain features that I had to grow in to. Intelligence wise I feel as though I learned some things that made me smarter, but in this time I learned how to be organized and all about time management and how much you have to study in order to understand certain things. The most important thing I learned during the course of these past 3 and a half years, was how to be more outgoing and to always be myself no matter who is around or what I am doing.
ReplyDeleteEver since freshman year I believe that I changed so much, in ways that are somewhat good and also somewhat bad. Freshman year I was so naïve to my surroundings and what life even was, also just how quick high school would go by, just like everyone said. I was always bitching about waking up and this and that but now I really don’t mind it. With that being said also as a freshman I looked like a wittle baby as did everyone. I was also so much more held back and worried about what people were saying now I say whatever I want haha and sometimes that’s bad but hey, at least I don’t care about what people think now. With that being said my sophomore year I feel like is when I really changed, because of all of the grievous events I withstood, they changed my outlook on life and actions. Now im mad outgoing and yea I love it.
ReplyDeleteAs a freshman, I would say I was a lot more ignorant to the world around me. These past 3 years have taught me a crap ton about the people that live in this world and what happens behind the scenes, but I am a better person now because of that. I was more social than the average freshman, but now I am 1000x more social and out of my shell, thanks to everything that these past three years has taught me about public speaking, communicating with adults, and being myself. I am no longer uncomfortable in my own skin, and I no longer feel like I have to prove myself to anyone. Despite the fact that I have learned a whole lot since then, textbook wise, I have also learned a lot about myself and my values and morals due to situations I have been in. Since freshman year, I have learned how to be a leader and how to make a mark for myself, instead of hiding behind my insecurities. I have discovered what type of people are worth fighting for, and I have also discovered how to deal with the people that aren’t. As I have grown up around certain kids, my morals have changed as I learn how to be a helping hand to them instead of watching from a distance. My motivation to be a better version of myself and to make the world a better, healthier place has drastically increased, simply because I have come to realize what is important and what isn’t. I have become a better version of myself since freshman year and there’s a lot of life lessons, relationships/friendships, and self realization that I can thank for that.
ReplyDeleteNow physical wise, that’s a whole different story. I feel like in a way I still look the same, but at the same time I look completely different. I don’t know, what do you guys think? I think I still look the same, just more mature. I feel like the year where I grew up the most physically was 7th or 8th grade, not high school, but maybe I’m wrong.
During my freshman, sophomore, and junior years, the most important thing I learned about myself was that I can handle things that I think I can’t. Whether it be finishing 6 hours worth of homework in 2 hours, public speaking to a room full of people, or learning to let go of people that were only hurting me by staying in my life, I realized that I can handle it, even if I think I can’t. I don’t know, I think that’s a pretty important thing to realize.
It really is crazy to look back on where I was as a freshman. Freshman year was exciting for me. I had a boyfriend going into it, so it was less scary. The thrill of “high school” made me feel anxious but energized. Being apart of the soccer team helped me ease into things and everything seemed great. Freshman year I wasn't self conscious about anything. I don't remember feeling insecure about my looks or body, and times were good. Sophomore year was a little different. I struggled with my confidence in soccer and in school. I realized that the world isn't so nice. I started questioning my self worth; things were different. I got into a bad state of mind. I remember struggling with getting out of bed. I went through a bad acne phase (I blame it on stress) and mental breakdowns were a daily thing for me. I was in a pretty bad car accident, so the second half of my sophomore year was spent at doctor appointments and therapy. I had anxiety when it came to being away from my family and I constantly feared that living in the world was dangerous. Thankfully, it got better. I remember junior year being extremely stressful. I started to heal a little bit, but I still struggled. My depression and anxiety improved, but the stress of school got to my head. However, I wasn't insecure. I was confident in myself. Junior year was the year that I grew an extreme amount of love for the world I live in. I became very appreciative and grateful for the things and people around me. And now, senior year. Wow. I have come very far, but I still have a long way to go. Unfortunately, I have returned to being insecure and self-conscious when it comes to my appearance. But, my attitude has changed. I stopped putting up with people’s shit. I made the decision to quit soccer, something I have been doing since I was 3 years old. I cut people out of my life that I never imagined myself living without. I opened my arms to new friends. I have tried to have a different outlook on life. I make an effort to not stress over every little thing. I tend to go by the phrase ‘if it won't matter in 5 years, then don't spend more than 5 minutes upset about it.” Despite me struggling with my insecurities, senior year has been a year of growth. The most important thing I learned about myself during high school was that I have a genuinely good heart. Not many people can say that they want to save lives for a living, nor can many people say that they want to change the world. I strongly believe that at some point in my life I WILL change the world. I learned that I have strong desire and dedication with whatever I do. I learned that I am powerful, and nothing can stop me.
ReplyDeleteGrowing up i was never one of those kids that knew what they wanted to do. in fact i still don't know what i want to do. i have always been the kid that has tried to think outside the box. i have been trying to try to see things more for than it actually is. coming in to high school being a freshmen i had a lot of people who i would speak to on the regular basis, i did not care about anything especially when it came to my grades., i was always handing in work late, not doing my homework and just being very lazy. i also did a lot of stupid things and spoke with the wrong people. and during my sophmore year it was almost the same things except i started to slighty care about grades more and doing a little bit more work than i used to., i still a lot of people i would speak but a ot of times i would feel like people did not want to talk for me. also i would have frequent ragas. a lot of times i would let my anger get the best of me. but this was strongly conflicting with my personality because i was always trying to be a nice and helpful person but it would not turn out that way for me., then junior year came along i have lost some people who were very close to me or we are not as close as we used to be. but this year i knew there i had to be some kind of change. i have done a complete 360 and started the year off with A's and high B's. i said to myself i must keep this going. i would do my best to get A's in all of my classes and try to do the best to my ability. then senior year came along i barely have 2 friends. i really don't speak to a lot of people. i mostly keep to myself and just get things done. i am just another high school student rushing to get out of school and start the next chapter of life. tired of being around a ton of immature people. and people who have used me. grades are going well i have A's and B's so far i have all A's in all my classes except for one. but i will bring that grade up and hopefully that will be an A as well. what i have learned throughout my high school years is that. when i put my mind to something i can achieve my goals. and that i can go with not talking to anyone.
ReplyDeleteI think I've changed a lot over the past four years. Looking back to my Freshman self, I would see myself as someone who was sad and wanted attention. I was quiet, but still wanted all these friends and people to like me, but at the same time I just didn't like people. I was basically a big contradiction, thus my downfall. I didn't know who I was nor did I have intentions of figuring all that out. But these past years have opened by eyes and turned me into this new person, a person in which I seem to get along with way more than freshie me. I've experienced plenty through horrible decisions, and then the repetition of these horrible mistakes because, although I may have learned the first time, I just didn't want to make the effort to change. I've learned to trust people less, which is something I really needed. But finally I've found out who I was, who I wanted to be and made efforts to get there. And here I am! I'm making more friends, being more open and not afraid to embarrass myself, and show the people around me what I am capable of. I have established the things I want for myself now and my future, and keep in touch with what I believe is right for me. As far as my appearance goes I think I've matured a little, and I've grown more confident in myself. Unlike little Freshman me, I depend so much less other peoples attention, and "friendship" to keep me going. I am much happier today than I was four years ago as a Freshman. The way I thought then steered me into an abundance of messes that I wasn't prepared for, but I feel I am much smarter now and I know how to handle myself. I have a greater grasp of who I am and what I want for myself.
ReplyDeleteEver since I've started my senior year I have found myself frequently thinking about this question. I'm the type of person that always looks for growth in some area of my life. No matter if it's big or small. I do that by reflecting on previous experiences or stages in my life and compare them to how I handle circumstances now. I love to reflect on my life because I feel like that's the point of our existence and as I was pondering about this question I have realized that I've grown a tremendous amount. Without getting into detail about it, this past year I've faced some of the most hardest circumstances that I never thought I would be in,. I learned what dedication, determination, and sacrifice meant. Going into my freshman year I didn't hold those same qualities as I do now. It's crazy how four years can change someone's perspective and outlook on life. I've became a better me and I'm extremely proud of the young lady I'm becoming. I'm appreciative of every lesson that I have learned through these four years, out of school and in school. The growth that I obtain now because of it makes me excited for the years to come. My perspective has definitely changed but my physical appearance definitely stayed the same. My baby face and all. Honestly I look the same as I did in 7th grade. I'm not really sure if that's a good thing or not but I guess when I get older you'll never tell because I'll age well. As of emotionally, I'm still that sensitive, caring, loving, sassy, but sweet girl that I was entering in my freshman year. The most important thing I learned since I was a freshman was my purpose. I learned that I was born to make a change in the world and impact the lives of others. I'm thankful that at a young age I learned the power I with hold and what mark I will leave on the world and the generations to come.
ReplyDeleteFreshman year I didn’t really know anybody since i’m from Galloway, I would just go to school and get it over with. I kind of felt lonely just because I didn’t know anybody and I used to think “oh she’s really pretty, she wouldn’t wanna talk to me.” I found all the people who came from Galloway and started talking to them because it wasn’t as weird since I’ve seen them around for a few year, even if maybe we hadn’t talk. I was way uglier freshman year, I don’t even like to look at pictures because I cringe, people even tell me how much i’ve changed over the course of few years. I’ve had people tell me I have a mini glo up every year or that I really changed. I don’t remember talking as much freshman and starting sophomore through senior year that’s all I did/do. Sophomore year I made a few friends I would’ve considered pretty close to me, probably around 5 of them, but now it’s senior year and I learned to talk to different groups of people. I definitely learned not to take shit from people and learned to use my mouth, which is probably what surprises people the most. People have told me I’ve changed in a bad way or that certain people have changed me, but honestly, I just learned to be myself. The people who say I’ve changed or someone changed me negatively never really knew me because I never opened up to many people. People used to think I was really nice based off my face and now everybody says I look mean apparently, that doesn’t really make sense because I’m always laughing unless I’m walking in the hallways. Freshman year I didn’t really express emotions, I was there and than I was gone, but every year I express my feelings more, maybe more than I should in certain cases.. I think I’ve done a pretty good job with highschool grades wise. I went from taking basic classes to taking honors and then AP and maintained a weighted gpa of 90 or higher each year. From all four years, I’ve learned to accept the fact that some people aren’t meant to be in my life. I always put 100 into any relationship with anybody so if it doesn’t work out, I can’t blame myself.
ReplyDeleteEntering into Oakcrest I was just a little kid who didn’t know much about the world. I didn’t know what to look forward to in life and I didn’t know what to expect. Oakcrest has been a life changing experience for me. I have learned plenty of things throughout my four years of Oakcrest. Some of those things I learned will be useful later in life and most of the things I’ve learned will not help in any way possible. One extremely valuable thing I’ve learned and am still learning is how to manage a budget. It took me till my senior year to finally learn something important about money. Before I entered senior year the most valuable thing I learned was that the mitochondria was the powerhouse of the cell. During Oakcrest I’ve also learned to be more independent. High school has helped me to rely less on my family and more on myself. I realized that I won’t be able to go to my grandmother for money when I’m 23 years old. In my time at Oakcrest I also met some extraordinary people. Most of these people are teachers like bunje, leathers, prince, and weisback. All four of these individuals helped me somehow whether it be school wise or personal wise. Along with the teachers I’ve also strengthened some bonds with my friends. One in particular Dom Ciro. I’d be lying if I said I liked Dom since the first time I saw him but truthfully I hated his guts. He was so loud and obnoxious I couldn’t stand it. Luckily for me I decided to get to know him better and turns out he’s not as annoying and loud as he first seemed. We’ve become family more than friends since the first time I started talking to him sophomore year. I am truly lucky to have gotten to know him a long with others. Physically I have changed very little. I have grown maybe 2-3 inches since I started going to Oakcrest. The most exciting thing that happened to me physically is I can grow somewhat of a beard and I got a much needed haircut that all my friends are happy I got. I never really thought about how much I changed until this blog. No one likes change even though it’s happening all around us but it’s safe to say that not all change is bad.
ReplyDeleteThinking back is something that I do often, but sometimes maybe too often. I usually look at the past and present way more than future and I should probably look more to the future because I need to be prepared for it. Something I haven’t thought about for awhile is what I was like when I was a freshman. It’s crazy to think that I am graduating this year, it felt like high school flashed right before my eyes. My physical appearance hasn’t changed too much to be honest besides growing a few inches but nothing crazy. I still look like a freshman and can still barely grow hair on my face sadly. So I still look like a little baby freshman but there have been other changes to me that don’t involve physical appearance. On the intellectual side I am a lot smarter than I was as a freshman and if I wasn’t then that would be a problem. I have learned many things in my four years of high school and this has obviously made me smarter. Just growing up and learning different things some not even through school have made me more intelligent. High school, even though it felt like a chore and stress zone most of the time, has helped me grow and become a better person for sure. When It comes to emotions as a freshman I was a little baby. I probably complained about everything, got emotional over dumb shit, was ungrateful, and didn’t understand the value of appreciation. Thankfully as I grew up I stopped being an idiot and matured. Now I only get emotional over things that deserve it, I appreciate everything and I make sure this is known, I keep my mouth shut when necessary, and I feel like I’m just a better person. I’m glad that I have changed since freshman year because I really didn’t like who I was. My thoughts are obviously way different from what they were four years ago and that’s good. I used to think about things that didn’t matter and I overthought things way too much. Now I think mostly about what’s important to me and try not to overthink the simple things. Sometimes I do think too much and this stresses me out but I’m working on it. The most important thing that I have learned through high school is the importance of friendship. I learned who to surround myself with and who not to. High school gave me a taste of what kind of people are out there and now I know that there are some genuinely cool ass people and then there are people that aren’t exactly like that. There are people that want to see me succeed and others who don’t give a shit. People changed and I have sat back and watched this happen during high school and sometimes I didn’t make sense to me. But thankfully I now know who my real friends are and I know who I can count on. High school has made me wiser and this wasn’t even through the work it brought. The experience has made me a lot smarter and just a more well rounded person. High school taught me that there are good changes and there are bad changes and I have learned to accept both even though they can bring a rollercoaster of emotions with them.
ReplyDeleteConsidering I was nominated for Most Likely to be Mistaken as a Freshman, I don’t think I’ve changed much physically. The only physical thing about me that’s different is that I put on weight (obviously) and my hair is much longer. I used to rock the bob look. I was also very ignorant to a lot of things. I had no idea what joints, bogies, and anything else in between were. I didn’t care about issues like LGBTQ+, race, and gender inequality like I do now. I think I didn’t care in general, freshman year. I got very average grades, the only two classes I tried in were honors biology and biomed. I didn’t get bad grades per-say but I didn’t get straight A’s (I got 3 A’s and 4 B’s overall). I am more outgoing than I was freshman year too. I mean, I was always friendly to people, never mean to anyone but I’m just really out there now. If you told me freshman year that I’d be making moves on a guy (not sliding in his DMs, I’m still a lil bitch about that) and dressing nicer, I would’ve laughed straight to your face. I didn’t like going out of my home freshman year, I liked staying in bed with my pets. Now I’m finding ways to get out of my house, so I can live out the rest of senior year (and be away from my parents).
ReplyDeleteThe most important thing I learned from freshman, sophomore, and junior years is that confidence is key. If you don’t have faith in yourself, then how are other people supposed to have faith in you. If you go into something saying “I can’t do this” or “There’s no way I can do this” repeatedly, people are going to see you as someone who doesn’t even try. Even when shit gets tough and it seems impossible, you have to go in with your head held high saying “I can do this”. Someone would rather see you fail while trying than give up without attempting.
Looking back over the past three years, I have definitely changed a lot. I actually started looking back at old photos, cringing! I am definitely not the same person or in the same position as I was four years ago.
ReplyDeleteAppearance-wise, I think I look the same except prettier. Freshman year, I still had braces (which I had since the sixth grade :/ ) and finally got them removed at the end of that year. I wore some outfits and hairstyles that I thought were great at the time but as I now look back were horrible (ughh, lol)!
Freshman year, I was so much shyer than I am now. As I’ve mentioned before, I walked into Oak knowing only one person. I was lonely, super self-conscious, and wanted people to like me. I used to eat lunch alone for almost four months, and I couldn’t even eat in front of anyone. I used to isolate myself a lot because I’d feel embarrassed. I went to school and went home like this, which is why I initially hated Oak and wanted to leave.
I was a “goodie goodie”. I used to think that anyone who curses is automatically a bad person. Well, baby freshman me was way off, walking into an environment with different kinds of people where nearly everyone uses curse words. I was still oblivious to several other things.
I was a smart freshman. I actually did my work and tried in school, so my grades were good. Obviously, I’m way smarter now, but not just academically. I also did not think about the issues that matter to me that year as much as I do now (ex. race, inequality, sexual assault).
Sophomore year, things were starting to change and get better. My classes got harder, and I knew and got closer with more people. I still had bad outfit and hair days (haha!).
The turning point for modern-day me was junior year. Junior year was hard, and it was the year of growth from the good and the bad things that happened to me. This is the same with the other years obviously, but junior year had the most impact. Junior year, I learned that the people who are still in my life up to this point are real friends worth keeping. I learned that I can’t cry over those who I no longer associate with because it only holds me back and makes me sad. Some people are in my life for a reason, and new people can appear and make a difference.
Fast forwarding to now: I no longer have braces, and I have better style choices. I know much more than I did four years ago, and I am exposed to and understand everything more-socially, culturally, or politically. I’m still kinda shy and quiet, but not like freshman year. I don’t talk to some people that I used to talk to a lot unless they ask me something, and some people I have completely cut off. I still try to do my work, although I procrastinate sometimes (trying to fight early onset senioritis, of course).
Through freshman, sophomore, and junior years, the most important thing I learned was that although there is the stress of being a certain standard academically and socially, I have to keep trying and believe in myself despite the setbacks and accept who I am. This is a lesson learned the hard way, but it continues to motivate me to this day.
Entering freshman year, I was open to new and different experiences. However, I was extremely nervous about everything to do with high school and I mainly chose Oakcrest because of a guy (not to forget, I was also very stupid and barely thought with my head). I had a shit ton of friends from middle school and participated a lot more in school. And with family life, I was always home and spent time with my family whenever I wasn't in school. Physically- my hair was extremely damaged, barely had curls, and constantly changed my hair color, and dressed good all the time. I participated in softball, basketball, student council, and other clubs. After freshman year, I learned more about my responsibilities and how to multitask with school and other things. In sophomore year, I feel as though I didn't really learn that much. However, I was much more different than I am now. I was way more outgoing and spent a lot of time with my friends. During junior year, I learned about trusting certain people and not trusting everyone. In addition, I started to stay alone most of the time and I was very focused with school. As a whole, I don't really think I changed much except emotionally and socially.
ReplyDeleteI definitely have changed a lot since my freshman year. Physically would be the easiest thing to describe. I am proud to say that I have successfully cultivated my hair follicles so that it grew two inches if you stretch it out. Over the years you can see my hair getting longer and longer, but my face generally stayed the same. I may have grown a (singular) chin hair in four years, but that isn’t something to boast. I’ve gotten slightly taller as well, and I have hit the coveted 6ft mark I have always wanted. Apparently I’m handsomer as well, but I like to think I always was. I feel 10X dumber than I was freshman year, but maybe that is because my course load is 10X harder. My attitude and personality has not changed one bit, but I am much more mature. I’m still talkative, cheery, and I still love to laugh. However, I am much more aware of the people around me. I still care for everyone, and am still empathetic. If there is one thing I’ve learned about myself, it is that I will always rise above sadness and hard times, and that I can’t stay down for long, even if I try.
ReplyDeleteDuring my freshman year I came into Oakcrest from Davies as a legit child. My hair was still shaped like a 5 year old because I had never worn it any different. My teeth were still locked by braces which still made me refuse to smile just as it did during my middle school years. I was as thin as a twig on a tree as I had always been. Coming in I thought i was very intelligent but I soon learned what high school was all about. My freshman courses were actually challenging which forced me to become smarter. I was extremely shy also in all my classes even though I had known a lot of the students because they were my friends from Davies. I thought that the seniors were super cool and I wanted to be just like them. During my entire freshman year the most important thing I learned was what high school was all about. Fast tracking to sophomore year I learned that people were adapting and changing to their surroundings and that some people would never be the same again. Junior year I learned how adulthood was embracing me and the people around me with the SATS everyone was worrying about and applying to colleges. Even though this year isn't even close to being over I know this year is going to teach me how to transfer into the adult world.
ReplyDeleteSince freshman year I've changed a lot. I once never went out and now dread staying in the house. My views on life have stayed the same relatively, but have changed none the less. I used to stay to myself and never really found my niche or crew, that was until the end of my freshman year. I found a friend group and with those friends came new choices and activities I did on my free time. I love the friends I have and all the memories I've created and will create, they have truly made me who I am today.
ReplyDeleteI was a completely different person freshman year. I put so much effort into my appearance, and spent extra time every single morning straightening my hair when it was already straight and putting on makeup that made my eyelashes extra long. I was not that smart, but I still made good choices outside of school. I was not focused on school at all and did not have my priorities straight. My emotions were kind of not there yet, if that makes sense. I don’t really remember having many emotions, but I remember it was the best year out of all four years. I think I was a lot more shy than I am now, and I never wanted to upset anyone, so I never really said anything other people would not want to hear.
ReplyDeleteThe most important thing I learned freshman year was that I did not like the feeling of not trying in school. I hated feeling like my bad grades were a reflection on who I was. I remember promising myself that I would get my stuff together. I was very determined, and I carried that determination over to my sophomore, junior and senior year.
My sophomore year, I learned that I didn’t need anyone. I learned to be so independent that I never asked anyone for anything. I minded my own business and learned how to do everything on my own. I got a job while also maintaining my good grades. This was the year I turned my life around for the better.
My junior year, I learned that there is nothing more important than my health. I also learned that it is the worst days of your life where you realize who is really there for you and who is not. Being in a hospital bed and doctor’s offices for most of my junior year taught me to be strong and lookout for myself, but also who was there for me during those days.
Throughout all four years, there has been only two things in my life that have been consistent. The first thing is Reec. We have been together since the summer before high school started and are still going strong. He has made my high school experience an even better one. The second thing is that I have always remained true to myself. By this I mean I never let anyone talk me into doing something I don’t want to do, I never followed the crowd and I let myself grow into the person that I am today.
When I was a freshman I was very immature and childish. I was in a lot of drama and my mouth had no filter. I also didn't really care for school but still got "ok" grades. My sophomore year was better than my freshman year, barely. My sophomore year taught me who my real friends were and how the closet people to you can cause the most harm. I still got in trouble throughout the school year but it was less than my freshman year. At this point, I still didn't really care for school but like before I still got ok grades. But this year, my junior year has been amazing to me so far. I actually like coming to school and learning different things everyday. I've not gotten in any trouble so far and I've been doing a lot of my school work. I only have 3 close friends to me but they're more like family and I couldn't ask for better friends. Throughout my years of high school, I can already tell that my junior year is going to be the best year for me.
ReplyDeleteSince freshman year I've changed in ways that some would consider small but to me they're a lot bigger. Freshman year I lacked so many qualities I have now and I don't think I would be where I'm at in life now if I didn't acquire these traits over the years. Things like confidence in myself, speaking up in front of people I may not know as well, and just figuring the way to talk to people. Freshman I'd probably say I was not all the way but close to being an asshole and that is not how I wanted to go throughout high school. There's nothing I could possibly gain from making other people feel bad so why do it, and now that I learned that I have changed. Over the years in high school my confidence grew in large amounts I use to want to hide, not be seen, or even just not try new things because my confidence continued to pull me down. But as a senior I think going through those things as a freshman made me a better person because I know what to do and how to do different things with the things I've learned
ReplyDeleteTo be completely honest, freshman year, I was a weirdo. This was because I was young, and I hung out with the older kids that were weird. But, because they were older, I thought they were cool. I really wasn't the me that I wanted to be. I had a girlfriend who really kind of restricted me. Also, I didn't really have planned who I wanted to be. Sophomore year I started to become myself, and do the things I wanted to. I started to mature more and come out of my shell a bit. But at this point in my life, I've had a multitude of experiences and I have learned a lot.
ReplyDeleteFreshman year feels like it was just last week.. I remember freshman orientation at Cedar Creek High school, getting up at 5;30 to catch a bus at 5:45 everyday my freshman year. I remember sleeping through the whole one hour bus ride in my own 3 seater that i got first dibs on because I was the first stop. Freshman year I was a short 5 feet 4 inches with a squeaky voice and was intimidated by upperclassman. I have sense grown to 6 feet tall and now realize that high school isn´t as scary as I thought it was 4 years ago. My freshman year I didn't fully believe that I could fall for someone but since then have been proven wrong the summer going into my senior year when I met McKenna. I used to just go through the motions and even though I still do that now I have started to slow down and take a look around where i have come from and where I still have to go. I also have realized that I do not need to act a certain way to be accepted and that I can just do me and the right people will stay with me through anything. I also realized that the real world is just as scary as it is interesting. The responsibilities I now look forward to just as much as I fear them.
ReplyDeleteFreshman year I was ugly, ignorant, emotionally medial, and cared about everything. My first year of high school I thought I was all grown up and big until I reached senior year and looked back at myself. Puberty wasn’t quite finished and my face was still round and fat, my body was super short and stubby (even more than now), and my foot was only a size 9. My intelligence level was sub-par and I believed that I knew everything about everything, again, until senior year. I was stupid and got terrible grades compared to what I get now. My emotion level was literally down the middle non-existent. I never was super happy unless it was lacrosse season and I was never super sad. Almost everything felt emotionless whenever I did something because there was no reason for me to feel happy or sad at the time unless I looked at myself or I was put in a situation that made me uncomfortable. Whenever I looked in a mirror, I felt disgusting. A kid who was fat, smelled bad, acted like an idiot, etc., it all pissed me off. Now that I’m a senior, all that still bothers me, I just know how to hide it. I also cared about everything. Parents, sports, friends, school, family, making money, working out, doing stuff around the house, etc. Everything stressed me out because I focused on everything all the time and made sure everything I focused on was perfect. I made sure my parents were okay, I made sure I was doing well in sports, I made sure my friends were okay and if they were ever making fun of me behind my back or something, I cared about making my school work perfect, I cared about making sure all my family was okay, I made sure that I tried to look presentable all the time….I-did-everything. But now, as a senior, I do what I want. Although I still care about everything, it’s not as extreme as before. I’m making sure I’m setting myself straight for college and my life down the road.
ReplyDeleteLooking back at my freshman year, it has been quite the experience since then. My freshman year was weird. Not weird in the sense that for the first time since 6th grade, I had to get accustomed to being in a new school, a new district. But weird in the sense that there were new people who I didn’t know in middle school became my best friends. I mean the only people that I really hang out with my freshman year that I still hanged out with my senior year is Alex Ho and Matthew Mata. As my high school years went by, sophomore year and junior year really showed you who people truly are. Because the middle years of high school, you figure out a lot not only about yourself, but who you associate yourself with. Because everybody doesn’t love everybody. Not all situations are lovely. Life hits you square in the jaw when you hit high school because you find yourself doing things you probably never would’ve imagined doing in middle school. Your childhood is locked away and adulthood becomes your new friend and thats scary. Thinking about it now, writing this blog post, it puts into perspective that the class of 2018 is about to take their next steps into adulthood and head off to college in just 5 months.
ReplyDeleteAs far as me, nothing has really changed with me since freshman year. Definitely not physically, I still have a chubby body structure. The only difference is that I grew a few inches. I still suck at math and am still good at everything else. I’m still a try hard in gym, I’ve always been respectful to everyone around me. I guess the reason that nothing has changed for me since freshman year is because there’s still a kid that’s trying to hold on to what makes Rodgerick Cameron Mccoullum Rodgerick Cameron Mccoullum. I hope I look back at this blog post down the road and realize I’m still the same guy.
When i was a freshman I was ugly as hell. I had a baby face. I was thinner then but still ugly. I think I’m a bitter defensive person now of days. Freshman year i was optimistic and blindly believed anything. That cause me to get my feelings hurt but I would definitely anything to be the same person i used to be. I don’t look at life the same, I wouldn’t even say I’m happy anymore. I guess this is just a part of growing up.
ReplyDeleteWhen I was a freshman I cared way to much about what people thought. I constantly woke up early to do my makeup and pick out the perfect outfit. I always wanted a boyfriend too, I swore it was cool to have a man to kiss in the hallway even if they were an asshole. To me grades were not important, my reputation was more serious to me. I realized my junior year how wrong I was with the way I was living. I realized that I’m not going to be one of the popular kids and that I needed to start living my life the way I really wanted to. I started to only care about myself, my own grades, my own life. When I really saw how stupid and pointless high school was, I stopped caring about everything. High school is not my entire life so I just do what I need to do to make people happy so I can leave it as soon as possible. I am much more wise on how life actually works than I was freshman year. When you’re younger you think that the friends you have are the only ones you will ever have you you swear that everything that goes wrong is the end of the world, I am so passed that. The most important thing I have learned is that I need to worry about myself before I worry about others. My life was horrible when I put others before myself so now I live my life with my best interest in mind.
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